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09 November 2009 @ 12:41 am

yes it is week 13, and i'm surprised by how today has been quite the breather lol. been bogged down by some matters for the past few days, on top of studying for AFA quiz and feeling guilty for not helping dennis enough with the TMS quiz, today was definitely a good wind-down from all that. i literally slept the entire afternoon away, also went for a good swim! i need to exercise more, now that pilates lessons have ended and my tummy is growing from the tub of durian icecream in my fridge (from icecream gallery!!), as well as the pigging out i've been doing under the influence of an evil advocate who has ill intentions to grow me obese :(

i should prob start drawing up a study plan for myself. that time of the semester is coming again, and i'm not gonna complain much since it's gonna be my second last time ever taking exams in school :(

life aside, worries aside, school aside, laying it all down and telling you that - God is so good!

Current Music: stay - hillsong

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06 November 2009 @ 01:15 am

most hilarious racist chat i've ever witnessed on fb poker:

Schultz Martins: bloody poonani

Wayne Vella-Said: wtf u talkn bout u maggot breath

Schultz Martins: open a english dictionary besides u n b ready

Wayne Vella-Said: typical curry

Schultz Martins: u faggtard

Wayne Vella-Said: cant spell 2

Schultz Martins: yeah ???

Wayne Vella-Said: go swim in the ghandi river like the rest of the sitt

Schultz Martins: stick 2 ur gun n stay quite

Wayne Vella-Said: ****T

Schultz Martins: **** U

Wayne Vella-Said: LICK DOGS BALLS

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31 October 2009 @ 10:44 pm

Jesus answered, 'I am the way and the truth and the life. no one comes to the Father except through Me.'

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30 October 2009 @ 01:23 am

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18 October 2009 @ 12:04 am

i think as the God's Big Picture series is drawing to a triumphant end, true there is so much to look forward to in the perfected kingdom. and i cannot wait, to be rid of the presence of sin, and to be enjoying a perfect relationship with the Lord, as it was meant to be. but reality check bel, we are still living in the last days, and is there any point to looking forward to the age to come if you weren't doing what you should to work towards that ultimate goal? it's almost like looking forward to a perfect vacation, without first making the necessary bookings and arrangements for it. true the perfect tour package is there, but there are still necessary steps and instructions that the travel agency would tell you to perform before you could embark on that perfect vacation.

in the great commission, Jesus said, 'all authority in heaven and on earth has been given to Me. therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. and surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.'

there are two clear elements in the great commission - a command and a promise.

true the promise is always nice to look forward to, a great comfort especially in times of suffering.

the command however, puts me to shame. i am increasingly irked by the myopic perspective of life i bear. how often, when considering job options, academic options, even day-to-day activities, do i stop and think: am i fulfilling God's command for me in this age. because if i weren't, i'm totally missing the point of christian living in the last days and everything i'm doing is just but meaningless. is knowing God for ourselves enough?

Current Music: dancing thru life - wicked

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15 October 2009 @ 06:21 pm

so, i've finally gotten two out of three of my wisdom teeth removed! i kinda have a lobsided face right now, but thank God i haven't experienced much pain thru and post op thanks to my awesome dentist too. the bottom tooth was an impacted one, which required a surgery. also, due to the extremely curved root, my tooth had to be sawed, and then cracked and separated into three parts before it could be fully removed. i was so nervous my whole body was practically jerking (shivering) during the first bit of the surgery haha. i had a good seven / eight doses of anesthetic. instead of closing my eyes and allowing for the moment to pass by quickly like a dream, i was curiously looking into the reflection coming from my dentist's surgical glasses and wondering what exactly he was doing to me. and then there was the in-between footage of him bringing his gloves out of my mouth, stained with.. my blood of course. and i could feel the tension and seriousness of every surgery that any doctor conducted for his patient, be it big / small. his nurse, flustering to and fro to change the equipment for him every few minutes. and when he was finally done with the bottom tooth, he went on to the upper one which thankfully took a much shorter time to extract, cos i was almost having trouble with holding my bladder already.

thank God for good dentists, and thank God for a God above whom i could speak to during my operation. one more week and i'm gonna go get my stitches removed.

on a side note, i have booked my tickets to perth next april! paid 791$ in total for parents, yez and i thanks to awesome jetstar deal :)

Current Music: misery business - paramore

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05 October 2009 @ 11:10 pm

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23 September 2009 @ 11:57 pm

yz's right. i have some major problem with anger management (or the inability of that). today i was driving to school for pilates, happily forgetting about the f1 race that was gonna cause some problems to the traffic along nicoll highway. lo and behold, i landed myself in this major jam which made me extremely late for class. after i finally disentangled myself from the massive traffic of middle road whatsoever, i called yz and asked which road was it that should turn into in order to make a subsequent right turn onto stamford road. and then i got the wrong directions from him and ended up getting caught behind several traffic lights, which got me running even later than i already had been! at 4.20pm, i decided that after i'd parked my car and made my way to the school gym which seemed so very far away from SOB especially when you're in a mad rush, changed into my workout outfit, i would've missed more than half of the class. thus, i made a u-turn and zoomed home instead. the heat rush up to my face / brain / hair / whatever was incredulous. i kept telling myself to be calm but i just couldn't and i felt so frustrated i was almost at the brim of tears. grr. i know i might be over-dramatizing a not very tragic tragedy, but that's just how bad i am with anger management! i find it so difficult to be calm in the face of frustrating / spider moments. i started doing crazy things like dashing thru a red light junction, swerving in and out of lanes. zzz something's gotta change bel, something's gotta change :\

on a side note, my 9pm hongkong drama is getting over-the-headly exciting, but tonight it had a sorta depressing effect on me blah

Current Music: vincent (starry, starry night) - don mclean

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11 September 2009 @ 01:29 am

this summer has been quite a rough one for the gathering of my uk girls and i. a few months ago, i recall dodo missing her flight to denmark due to the unforeseen new rules and requirements of our dear ryanair. and when she painstakingly camped thru a night in stansted to finally arrive in denmark on a quadruply inflated flight ticket, the three of us only got to spend a day together :(

and now, just after a brief dinner and mj session, dodo has gone back to the land of whisky and fudge again :(

nevertheless, we did have a very cosy gathering with the rest of the girls at a place called pietra santa - an awesome italian restaurant with reasonably priced pizzas / pastas and an ambience that is very much to my liking :) - all thanks to the reviews i read on ieatishootipost!

on a side note, i'll be off to kukup for the weekend and i'm praying it'll be a good retreat :) toodles!

Current Music: bubbly - colbie caillat

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27 August 2009 @ 07:33 pm

the past two days have been great - a disciplined work day followed by some awesome time with my favourite friends. finally caught up with dodo and yez last night and it was such a splendid movie! equipped with all the good ethics and principles to be passed down to kids and all e.g. treating the nature as a friend, being kind to animals, being unafraid of dangerous ventures for your dreams etc. hehe.

sadly though, the sore throat i've been trying to nurse for the past two days has taken a turn for the worse and ignited a slight fever leading to the lethargy, intermittent chills and body aches i've been feeling all day. clearly, the stress level of school life is on the rise.

and still, i gotta recover quickly to be set for the recruitment talk marathon which i'm embarking on tomorrow.

Current Music: you only live once - the strokes

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25 August 2009 @ 02:21 pm

Current Music: five loaves and two fishes - corrinne may

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20 August 2009 @ 04:53 pm

lately i have been constantly reminded of the need for christians to love and serve their neighbours in a practical manner. recall: preaching at trinity on poverty, my nightly readings of john stott's issues facing christians today. the natural circle of the duties of a christian includes an understanding of the tenets of one's individual faith as well as a constant thirst to understand more about God's great plans and God Himself, but it also demands a practical program of evangelism thru the recognition of and the thereafter dealing with the issues of the secular world. are we gonna be like the priest and levite, whom in their shameful neglect of the man who had been assaulted and robbed, claimed that their calling was above all to go and work in the temple?

we shall not just prattle and plan and pray, like that country vicar to whom a homeless woman tured for help, and who promised to pray for her. she later wrote this poem and handed it to a regional officer of shelter.

i was hungry,
and you formed a humanities group to discuss my hunger.
i was imprisoned,
and you crept off quietly to your chapel and prayed for my release.
i was naked,
and in your mind you debated the morality of my appearance.
i was sick,
and you knelt and thanked God for your health.
i was lonely,
and you left me alone to pray for me.
you seem so holy, so close to God
but i am still very hungry - and lonely - and cold.

i wish i had a more noble mind, that wasn't filled with thoughts concerning the uncertainty of my own future, my own plans, my own deeds.
help me to be more like You, Jesus.

Current Music: you alone are God - hillsong

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14 August 2009 @ 02:59 pm

today marks the last day of work, and also, the last weekday of our very last summer break boohoo :(

i know i say this every year, but this summer, actually this entire year in general has really zoomed past too quickly. it feels almost like a very endearing and fairytalish dream which i don't wanna wake up from. however, the atrocities of life as an smu accounting student beg a continuous six-hour marathon of advanced accounting classes in three days' time. SIGHDUMS. time to slap yourself awake bel!

last night a couple of the smu peeps and myself attended an apologetics class conducted by sj on the common objections to christianity. i've never experienced a live debate about christianity amongst a bunch of varsity students in this manner before. (but i do recall encountering live debates about religion in the hyde park corner a few months ago, where people were publicly and vigorously promoting islam / christianity etc.) it was an interesting experience, and probably a thought-provoking one. but i'm not quite sure if i would call it insightful. nevertheless, thanks sj for the session! i find it extremely useful as an evangelism platform especially at this age. you realize that the appeal to emotions and sob stories aren't as sustainable or effective with an increasing thirst for evidence and proof amongst intellects and rational educated beings. i'm not saying debates are definitely the way to go, cos it's not like as if we're omniscient god-like beings who are able to answer all queries / arguments to do with creation, the spiritual realm or even evidence wrt biblical events. but at least if we try, we can demonstrate that our faith isn't one that's unfounded. there might be gaps we have to bridge with faith (being the belief without having to see / witness), but there is also much we can be sure of, with the wisdom and Word God has blessed us with.

okay toodles for now and ps. i am lovin' the rain woohoo!

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11 August 2009 @ 10:54 am

i've had a GOOD and rejuvenating extended national day weekend! public holidays become very much treasured when you're into working life. or at least semi-working life, given the INTENSITY (heheh) of the workload i receive.

friday night was spent chilling at overeasy with denmark buds and these jap dudes that justin brought along.

saturday was entirely committed to ws' wedding - from rehearsal, to the processional, and finally the dinner at hotel miramar! (spot christine in a SATIN DRESS when photos are up on fb)

sunday morning i visited guan's church which also happens to my direct neighbour - trinity @ paya lebar heh. it was shiokness to wake up early to a swim and prayer before attending church which required only a five minute walk. and the amazing thing was the pleasant surprise i received by the biblical and insightful sermon preached on social awareness and poverty issues, tied in with an edifying singspiration session that didn't forget the nation's birthday celebration (think: national anthem AND famous national day song HOME hehe). lunch at gardens sushi tei after, which was fabulous since it was my first proper jap meal since i was back and i've also discovered that the lovely public carparks at gardens are foc on sundays woohoo! then spent the rest of the afternoon playing three-player mj at home with mum and yez (which has been our new-found hobby for the past month). and then ndp + sgi at night which was kinda boring and falling short of my high hopes :\

yesterday the public holiday was spent at my aunt's birthday celebration at pinchos tapas and wine. the beef and sangria were awesome, though tapas isn't exactly the most hunger-satisfying food around. and then back to my place for mj again haha, followed by a very fruitful apologetics session at sj's at night.

and now here i am, back at work (sorta), experiencing a terribly strong inertia to get down to work proper.

i cannot wait for lunch whee!

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04 August 2009 @ 12:04 pm

some photo updates of my first month back in the disgustingly hot and humid country, but full of lovely people :)

headed to butter on our second friday back. reliving some european partying days - cos you're hot and you're cold.

dinner + mudpie with the girls

youth sunday band heehee

okay back to work! ciao.

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21 July 2009 @ 03:35 pm

i just watched some chicken a la carte youtube video from glori's blog and i'm feeling a mix of nausea and depression. i thought the video would be about the unethical re-use of leftover meat by crude f&b businessmen initially until i saw the kids fighting for and gnawing on the leftovers. which reminded me of the dumpsite i visited in cambodia and the occupants' enthusiastic search for treasure amidst the burning trash.

on a different note, i was watching the local drama on gynaecology, first touch, over lunch today. and was reminded of how i once aspired to become a gynaecologist when i grew up haha. then i thought about the evolutionary process that my dream occupations went thru, and becoming an accountant was never one of them. then i started to feel kinda depressed about how my life had turned out the way it is (i don't know why i felt this way). and i blamed myself for not having a goal to work towards, for always taking life in my own stride and breezing my way thru it.

incidentally, i came across one of the uni-y newsletters titled 'living on little baggage' and i actually took a moment to read it. (and i'm so glad i did) the article was written on the way we always wished everything in life could be under control / predictable / planned for, thereby creating unnecessary baggage for our own hearts and minds. when in fact, we could choose to live light, if we would just surrender the things we can't control, and choosing to live life with ease and simplicity. i will strive to do that - surrender :D

Current Music: leavin' - jesse mccartney

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10 July 2009 @ 03:57 pm

some snippets of europe

austria - vienna

czech republic - prague

scotland - edinburgh

Current Music: curbside prophet - jason mraz

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02 July 2009 @ 06:10 pm

i just had a hearty local breakfast of black carrot cake (yums) with kai at the gardens market this morning before coming home to a pretty long nap of close to two hours. i don't really know if jetlag is still a legitimate excuse for weird sleeping hours anymore!

nonetheless, life back home has been good and relaxing and it's been fun meeting up with random people and doing random things. true i still miss my life on exchange, but i haven't really suffered any tinge of 'reverse culture shock' at the moment and things around me don't really seem to have changed that much (aside from a few pretty shocking pieces of news i've come to hear of over the past two days!). oh but the roads outside my place have changed quite abit due to the kpe / circle line constructions! there is now an underground tunnel linking my house to upper paya lebar and i now have to make a detour of a u-turn to get to jas' place :\

and i've really been receiving quite a fill in the 'local food' area and eaten almost everything i've been craving (except for hainanese chicken rice)! just last night, i had dinner with weiyang and yezhong at the coffeeshop in siglap and i was really happy to be back in the siglap area again after having moved out of the area for over a year :\ i really miss my old place and all the activities i gotta do while staying in the east e.g. evening jogs by the park connectors boo :( okay but that aside, i was really upset when i heard they ran out of the usual hainanese pork stew (kong bak) that my rents and i always order when we're at that coffeeshop!

okay but my point is that i have been eating quite alot of local delights, and i haven't been exercising enough for sure (i suffered a terrible puncture after 3.5km on the treadmill) so there goes my plan of a super massive diet to lose everything i've gained on exchange. big SIGH :( looks like my lil tummy is here to stay.

and now i'm gonna meet liwei for dinner at chomps! haha hello to more oily but yumms to the max food!

Current Music: breakfast at tiffany's - oasis

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30 June 2009 @ 03:16 am

singlish CHECK
red passports CHECK
humid weather CHECK
bedok 85 bcm CHECK
thomson prata CHECK
balestier bak kut teh CHECK

okay i really AM HOME :(
sigh i'm gonna miss living the european life soo badly, and it's only gonna get worse when school begins and the hectic school life sets in and i'll start thinking about how my experience with asb has been so incredibly slack and stressless unlike smu :(

anyhow i will enjoy while i can. so to hell with boss, AFA and AT :\

Current Music: my God - hillsong australia

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26 June 2009 @ 12:54 pm

it's really coming to an end. unbelievable but true :(
i'll be coming home really soon.
the past six months have just flown past like that (ZOOM) and this entire experience has been so surreal to me.
i still think back about the first few days of arriving, the first road trip to germany, the orientation week, the parties we went to etc etc and i cannot believe that all this happened in six months. and that these six months have come to an end.

urgh i don't know if i should be happy or sad.

Current Music: the scientist - coldplay

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